Hodgepodge

So my car died this last week. Engine is blown. I didn't freak out, because I'm where I'm supposed to be in life, and it'll work out. Granted last week was the first week of my last term of my first year! So there was a bit of concern, but I knew it would work out, and it did. My cuz is going to lend me her minivan so I can finish out the last 5 weeks of my term! I will be driving a Toyota Sienna! LMAO I know right?! But hey, I can rock a soccer mom van!! It's a set of wheels, and I'm grateful for them! My car didn't have AC, was loud, two of the windows didn't roll down, and there was a fume from the engine that burned my skin! But I loved that car.

It's really hard to let him go though. I had War Pony for 5 years (the longest I've ever owned a car, or heck, ever lived anywhere) he cost me $2k, and I paid him off from tips I was making as a server in S. Dakota. Everyday after work I would track my Auntie down and pay her whatever I made that day (that's who I bought the car from). He was a great car when I got him, everything worked, he had power! On the way home from S. Dakota to Cali, he blew his muffler joint up under the engine in Nevada. I should have known then. Since then he started falling apart, and even though I maintained him as best as I could, I don't think he ever really liked Cali. He was from the rez, but I think he ran as long as he did for me. Okay enough about that, let's just say when I was homeless, I trusted my car more than some of my "friends". They let me down, he never did. One day I will blog a post solely to War Pony, but not now, it's too soon.

Like I mentioned, started a new term last week! SJ is back, I thought I wouldn't see Hottie at all, but he has 2nd in the same room I have 1st, so I see him in the hall. Oh well, 5 more weeks and I won't see him anymore. I know a lot of you wonder why I call someone Hottie, yet can't stand to be around him...one day I will explain. He's been known as Hottie since last year when I started school, before I got to know him!

I know I talked about how I'm ALWAYS surrounded by my tech guys and it was frustrating. Well, in my Math class I was the only one, granted Pierced was there, but he's behind in classes so he's not really "my class" anymore. Of course there were other tech guys there, but once again, not MY class. I felt weird, and lost! And then a girl sat next to me. I almost flew out of the room! I don't remember the last time I wasn't surrounded by my tech guys. It just felt odd, my guys weren't with me! Well Jesse has the same class, but he was absent that day. He now sits next to me, and the world is spinning how it is supposed to. The girl still sits there, but she's cool, she's Native. She gets flirty, but I manage.

So that is what has been going on, a little bit of everything. Just waiting on grades from last term, which we should get this week. I'm optimistic! ;) peace

How great was today?

So SJ (Stoner Joshua) came in today to sign his paperwork for starting next term. SJ was my first friend at school. He sat next to me in English and my first tech class. So you know how like in grade school your first friend is the one you "bond" with, and try and sit next to in all your other classes? Yeah, that's SJ and me. I like SJ because I can just be me around him. No need to compete for grades, or be the best tech guy (he's a tech guy too), we can talk about other stuff than school. Heck we can even go to lunch and not talk at all, and be okay. He calms me. Whereas Hottie (used to) frustrate me or upset me, SJ just kept me at a chill level. He finished his first term with me, but then dropped out 2nd. We kept in touch and I was always bugging him to come back. He tried a couple times, but the school wouldn't let him. I'm so excited he will be back for my last term! I think it's only fitting I started my first term with him, and that I end my last term of my first year with him. We are going to try and take first period together. Ironically, it will be in the same classroom where we started our first term together! Ha! I think school for me would have been different if he didn't drop. I give him crap all the time about leaving me with "those people", and I know he regrets dropping. He's in a better place now though. I have to talk to the Dean tomorrow about getting him in my first period.

Another great thing that happened? I found out MG (Married Guy, AND introducing a new person into my virtual world) will be taking my spreadsheets class with me at night. I took it before, but I was homeless at the time and I didn't pass, because I didn't care. So I have to take it again, and I'm so glad MG will be there. He's a great tutor for me and he helped me tonight with all my math homework! That's all I'm gonna say about MG right now, stay tuned though.

So, for my first period (with the teacher I do not like, and have to retake 2 of her classes) I'll have Matt and SJ (hopefully), so I like that. For my spreadsheets class I'll have MG who is so supportive and nice that I know I'll do good. For my math class I'll have Jessie, who is also a great person and challenges me to be a better student. I am so set for my last term, bring it! I just have to worry about my math final tomorrow. My math teacher doesn't like me, and if he gives me a bad grade on my 2nd project, I'm probably going to get kicked out of school, because I will call him out! MG went over my 2nd project and it's perfect.

I'm prepared, though, for my math final. So, we'll see. Was a great day school/friend wise. ;) peace

Update!

I know it's been a few days. Think of the opening credits of Glee when then they do a recap: *school bell* I did finish my math homework on time, and I'm pretty sure I aced the test. I had to dress up in a shirt & tie for school last week, and hated it, but enjoyed the compliments...even the ones from the girls. :) Hottie has been less annoying this past week and I've actually only had to interact with him like once. They day I dressed up, he whistled. There's this hot teacher on campus (in addition to HTT) that I find very attractive. He's an older, hairy, bear type, turns out his TWIN brother is my Math teacher! I also found out I'll have him second year in Networking. Score. This coming week is Spring Break, and yet I have homework. WTH? My best friend is in the area, from Boston, so at some point I'll be doing gay sh*t with him. *sigh* Oh well, it's his vacay and he's not comfortable in straight venues. He's talking a s*x club in SF. Um, the Castro is about my limit! Stoner Joshua has texted me more than a few times this week about whether I will be there next term or not. I assured him I will be but I will only be there for 3 classes so not sure how long I'll be on campus. I know he's getting nervous. Our first term we had 3 our of classes together and always sat next to each other. Spent a great day today with my nieces and nephew who are staying with my mom a couple days. They were bouncing off the walls so I went and bought them some games. We played Sorry for hours and I think I turned my niece (who is 6)into a gangsta. I was focusing on "you play to win, and take no prisoners, and show no emotion". After losing a couple games she blurts out "I'm playing with no emotions, if you win, you win!" then looks at her sister (who is 11) "sorry sissy, but it's on". LOL! Of course my mom is giving me admonishing looks, but I told her I'm teaching my niece valuable life lessons that will help her in the future. I don't think she bought it. Then my nephew (who is 14) and I made a "dirty alliance" (his words) and took the baby out! Then high fived while she glared at us. My mom may not let me back in her apartment. All in all it was a great day, and I enjoy being the Uncle that rocks! As the six year old put it.

And that's what you missed!
;) peace

MY BAD!

Wow, been a minute! Okay, Christmas was fun, spent time with my brother and I got cash for presents. Awesome! Visited with my newest niece who now moves around a bit, she's 3 months. The only thing is my sister was drunk (no surprise) and she got on my nerves. I'm usually okay with her being drunk because at least I get to see her, when she does drugs I never see her. This time around didn't enjoy her company that much. My Precious got a laptop for Christmas! Of course his redneck dad bought it used from some person with a profile name of CaliGirl, yeah...the laptop wasn't factory restored or anything. In his dad's defense, it's not like I would expect him to know how to restore the machine. There was no anti-virus or malware software on it. So I brought it back to Sac and now it's like a brand new machine, a brand new PROTECTED machine. :)

I did some intern work at school this week, so basically being an intern means you do what no one else wants to do and you don't get paid for it? Got it. They fed us though, so can't complain. We start classes back up on Monday and I must say I've enjoyed the break.

I moved out today, they are making my room into the baby's room and Jodi's mom lives next door now, so no reason for me to be there. I'm okay with it, it was time to move on. So tonight I'm in a hotel, will check some rooms for rent out but may just stay in a hotel until I start working. I enjoy my privacy and my room has a stove and fridge so I'm good. Just cheaper to rent a room though.

Um what else, that's about it. Got a little melancholy today packing up but it's a good thing and I'm actually feeling so comfortable right now in my room. It's nice and quiet and I don't feel any responsibility like I did when I was care giving for Jodi and the baby. I'm back to it just being me against the world! haha!

With the new term starting, I was hoping for some eye candy...I am once again disappointed! Really!? There was one hot guy my first day of interning but he had a wedding ring on and I've never seen him around campus. The way we are scheduled, you can go six weeks without seeing someone that you used to see each day in class. I haven't seen Hottie this term, and probably will not, because of how we are scheduled. Kinda okay with that though.

Alright, time to wrap this up and just enjoy some Hotness!! ;) peace

My virtual family.

I'll try to keep this brief because I don't want to dwell on negativity. Okay I have to move next month, no idea where, I only have 2 unemployment checks left and there are no more extensions. If I go back to work and switch to night classes I won't get my A+ cert for like a year because the tech classes I need aren't offered in the same way as they are during the day. Basically I only need to make it to April until I get my cert AND because of my grades and attendance, I'm guaranteed a job from Career Services at school, well not with THEM but they will find me one. I was talking with my cousin last night and she's right, dropping days and switching to nights or taking time off, not an option. I'm so close and I've worked so hard to get this far, I can't put this off! So even if it means living in my car, I'm going forward with school. I'm a little apprehensive (okay I'm scared) but, ya know what, I can do this. I've faced bigger obstacles and there is a possibility that Congress will pass a bill that will allow the extensions. I do have a cousin here but that's not really an option for reasons I won't go into here and I know nobody else, so...yeah. I'll have enough for a hotel room for maybe a month and a half. I have friends and family but they live so far away, it wouldn't be worth it gas wise to even try and commute and also my car is on it's last leg. So my future is daunting but I just gotta keep my mantra, make it 'til May. May is when we are officially done with our first year, April I should be certified and employable. So I don't know what's going to come with the new year, but I do know I can't get off my path school wise. For those thinking find a job that works around your school schedule, well I've been told to my face that I'm over qualified by managers from restaurants and a couple retailers. I'm still going to try, just not gonna bank on it. And I'm not joking about sleeping in my car, if that's what it takes to get my cert then that's what I'll do. I'm a very strong person and while my future is uncertain, I'm not uncertain about finishing my first year, with my class, as planned.

On another note, I didn't feel this confident last night. I had a great night with my cousin and niece, saw a movie and felt calmer after talking to my cousin but I still just felt in a funk. Last year the few friends I had here in Sacramento, I had to cut out of my life because I felt like they were toxic for me. Once I did that, everything just fell into my lap and now I'm in school. So I know I did the right thing. My best friends live out of state or where my family lives so I feel alone up here in Sac. I'm in my room last night and I'm feeling really low and just...I dunno, like nobody gives a shit. And I know that's not true but you know what I mean, we've all been there. I'm on Twitter and one of the guys I follow tweets a Tumblr post and I just started bawling. He included me in a group of people that he really cares about and I just, I lost it because it's so what I needed at that moment...to hear. I mean he was out with his friends and he blogs about how much he cares about his friends, family and girlfriend and then bam I see my twitter handle included. Anthony, if you read this (you're going to 'cause I'm tweeting it to ya! ;) I hope you know you really touched someone and I am so happy to know you, even if it's only on Twiiter. :) hugz my friend. So to all my virtual friends, I appreciate you and please know that you keep me going. I connect with you every day and I thank you for your tweets, your comments on my blog, your text messages...all of it. The past year has been trying and it looks like the new year is going to be worse and even though I may not know anyone in this metropolis I live in, I have you guys on my laptop, on my BlackBerry, every day giving me laughter, encouragement, support and much love. I hope I am giving all that back to you. Big Hugz! ;) peace